“Despite understanding, on some level, that what he was doing was wrong, he never conceded the hypocrisy of being out in the world preaching positivity, spiritualism, empowerment, Buddhism, enlightenment, love is love and chakras while at the same time, taking away my right to make choices for my life and my body based on the truth.”
It’s a hell of a thing. It doesn’t just go away, in many cases we are expected to not talk about it, dwell on it, leave it behind and move on from it. But…. it doesn’t quite work that way.
We work with it and quite often because of others, we suppress it so as not to be a bother or bring down others. But as you can see from the most recent news stories coming out from celebrities or about celebrities, it lingers…
That’s one of the reasons I’ve always spoken out about what happened to me a couple years ago, just to recap the man I married hid his inability to have children from me which finally came out after I was too old to conceive myself and then I found out six months after our separation he had also been having an affair with someone we both met at a festival years prior.
I digress though, it really isn’t about the affair. That’s not something that saddened me in the way you think it would have, I was disappointed and angry, but not really surprised given his history. For me, it has always been about his dishonesty and continued gaslighting on something that was extremely important to me. I wanted to be a mom, have bio babies and this was taken from me by him on purpose. He took away my right to choose and this injustice, this cruelty will be something I’ll never completely heal from.
So hell yes to the people finally speaking their truths after years of silence. You gotta get that s*** off your chest, sometimes more than once. And if you don’t get it ?
Anyways that’s my truth. It’s not exactly a feel good story, it’s downright devastatingly depressing once you realize the gravity of it all but thanks to my friend over at instagram.com/sketchpoetic whom encouraged me to self express through art, I started drawing/painting and something beautiful has been created from something so tragic.
Please make your way back here when you can. I’ll be updating and creating a new site within the next year/few months.